I love Jhene Aiko's "Spotless Mind". I swear that album got me through a really tough time. Spotless Mind in particular was exactly what I needed to hear..."Change is inevitable. Why hold on to what you have to let go of?"

But that was then and this is now. In this phase of my life, I'm focused on the fact that change isn't always inevitable. Sometimes you have to create change. Sometimes you have to start a fire and keep adding wood to it. 

I've been having this feeling that my life is about to change in a wonderful way. It's an unexplainable feeling, but it's been constant for a while now. Everything inside of me believes that it's true. And somehow even the bad things are starting to feel like a vital part of that story. But I'm also uncertain about exactly what that means, so I'm feeling an odd combination of nervousness and excitement. 

I have felt this feeling before. But the difference this time is that I feel ready for it. Last time I wasn't ready and didn't realize that although "the universe" is conspiring and the stars are aligning, I would still have to make some bold decisions and thoughtful choices. Calculated risks. I chose not to do anything and so nothing happened. I allowed life to keep pulling me in the direction I would go. I was just blowing in the wind and didn't even know it. 

This time is different. I know I have to do my part. I have to be as fearless as I claim to be. I have to be willing to take risks and do things differently than I'm used to doing. I have to trust God and allow him to order my steps, knowing that he made me capable of making the necessary decisions. We're in this together and I'm so excited for what's next. 

-Ness