The beauty of being human is that we long for love, acceptance, and the company from other human beings. A lot of what we do is driven by these factors. We are constantly influenced by the people around us. And sometimes, it's hard to stay true to originality or to our own thoughts and ideas because of our influences.
So when I'm not busy constantly being distracted by the noise of the world, I like to go into my sacred place. This sacred place is where I am completely butt-mentally naked. I don't have to worry about the likes or dislikes of the world here. I don't have to impress anyone but me. I can be 100% me, and it's where I am at ease. This sacred place is called my solitude.
So many people are terrified of it. Some people run from it like how I ran from clowns at 5 years old. Me, I fully embrace it. I embrace it much differently than how I use to. It can be such a powerful place to be if one utilizes it properly. I see it as this rich, golden, and untouched place that no one can buy from me. I like to read, write, meditate, and cultivate here. It's where many of the most successful people first developed an idea that ended up being a huge hit went to first. It can also be a place of peace and reflection.
The world is already busy enough trying to distract people from what's real to them. We get pushed into worrying about things like paying bills, dealing with the stress at our jobs, buying a new iPhone, and my absolute (least) favorite, what the Kardashians are doing! There's a price on pretty much everything in this so called life we live, but my solitude is the one place someone else can't make money off of or take away if I don't have the funds to pay for it. It is where my hidden treasures are kept and I have no intentions of letting anyone rob me of that or infiltrate what keeps me whole.
I say all of this as a reminder to myself that there is beauty in being alone. There is value in being alone. There is nothing wrong with recharging from time to time and regaining my sense of who Lauren really is. I just have to remember to protect my peace as well as my sacred space. I love interacting with those around me, but I also have to pick and choose staying true to my thoughts and values verses blindly living for the thoughts and values of other people. And I'm ok with that.
-L